Up in the Night

Here it is 3:30 am & I am wide AWAKE! I've been counting sheep(not really!) But I have been going through different things in my mind to help me go back to sleep & so far none of it is working...so here I am blogging away in the middle of the night-or should I say early morning?

Patience is something I really need to work on & develop more. The funny thing is I posted something about needing to be more patient on facebook yesterday & I got all kinds of responses that they need to do the same thing! I guess I'm not alone in my quest to improve an aspect of my life! The crazy thing about getting so impatient is that many times we have no control over the other thing or person that we're letting ourselves get impatient about...we spend so much time snapping to be impatient that we forget to calm down & chill for just a moment. And, maybe in that moment we would realize the need to slow down & think about how we're acting and start being more patient w/ourselves, others, & things. I know this is a learning process & it's for our own good--it's just convincing myself of that to believe it!

Another issue I need to work on is motivation. I'm feeling a huge lack of this in my life as of late & it's starting to bother me to the point where I know I need to do something about it. I've felt so tired lately, too--so my struggle to find motivation has been tampered by my fatigue.

I hate to be blogging so negatively! Sorry about that...I need to move on to happier things! Hmmm...let's see--this year 2010 seems to be turning into an exciting year. I'm looking forward to all that will happen. Shane is blossoming into such a busy little boy more & more each day. I love him dearly even though he does try my patience, send me on chases(after him), have little tantrums, & give me stinky presents. He's my little boy & I love him more than I ever thought I could ever love a baby! Dustin, my honey, is wonderful. He is so patient & understanding. I am thankful every day that I found my best friend. I love Dustin w/all my heart.

My card making makes me happy, but I haven't done a lot of it this year so far. I need to do more of this--to have more cards made & to give myself some 'me-time' so I'll be happier! My 'me-time' doesn't get to happen too often, so I have to enjoy it whenever I get a chance. I also need to work on scrapbooking...it seems there's always so much to accomplish & not enough time to do it don't you think? I still need to do a scrapbook for Shane for his first year, then start his scrapbook...then make a scrapbook for Dustin for the Valentine present I gave him last year...then I need to do a scrapbook for our wedding almost a year ago! I definitely don't have enough hours in the day for all of that...so I need to prioritize & bit by bit I'll get it all done!

Well, I think I will head back to bed instead of being 'up in the night.' So, take care for now & I'll write more again at a later date!

Love,
--Shelly