"So this is how it ends" is the first line of a song I heard on the radio after finding out about some horrible news. The song is "Red Light" by David Nail. And, now over a month later I still get a little teary eyed when that first line comes on the radio...because it brings me back to the moment the radiologist told us our baby was gone and there was no heartbeat.
I've delayed in posting something new here on my blog mainly because it's been a hard thing for me to read the posting just before this--the one from February. I think I'm getting a little better about it...but it's still hard. You see I had a miscarriage. We found out at the ultrasound on March 12th when I was 11 weeks. But the baby only measure at 8 1/2 weeks which is about the last time I posted on here! Losing our baby has been difficult for me--some days are better than others. Life goes on no matter what happens & sometimes that's one of the harder things for me to understand. I feel like we should have moments that stop time so we can cope...but that doesn't make much sense & that's not how life is--so we must go on & learn how to handle what has happened in the best way possible.
Miscarriage has been a whole new experience for me. It's been full of sadness and loss, but also lots of love and caring at the same time.
